9 Week u/s: Everything looks good!

I know this picture doesn't look like anything but a blob, but when we saw that little blob moving around, it was really cool. DH and the nurse saw its arms, but I couldn't see anything that even resembled a human being. LOL Its little heartbeat was just flickering away and it moved around every once in awhile...it was hanging out upside down so in the pic the head is pointing downward with the feet up in the air.

Baby was measuring 8w5d (thank goodness because before it moved and stretched out it was measuring 8w1d...freaked my shit right out) with a heartbeat of 182 bpm. So relieved and happy.

Week 9: Olive

I love dirty martinis, so this week is my favorite so far. :) I'm so happy to have made it this far. I have another u/s this evening and am trying to stay positive throughout the day and not have those negative thoughts creep into my head too much...just hoping everything looks good in there and our little olive is growing away.

I've been VERY tired this week. Nausea has been hitting on and off, mostly in response to people's perfume and cigarette smoke. I've been finding if I eat too much I feel sick...if something looks really good to me and I eat it, it grosses me out an hour later...and I'm starting to have strong cravings, like for hot dogs, for example. I'm starting to get a little pooch and those boobs are bigger than ever. I'm trying to take all these symptoms as a good sign and just stay positive.

Week 8: Raspberry

The nausea has hit hard. I'm sitting here sipping ginger-lemon tea, trying to grade papers, when all I want to do is crawl back into bed and/or barf. I'm not complaining though! I'm happy to have these symptoms to tell me my LO is growing away in there. I can't believe I made it to 8 weeks...I'm so amazed and feel so lucky. So far I've been craving spicy foods and macaroni and cheese (the cheap kind from the box), have no baby bump to speak of, and can take a nap on command. Next Monday we have our next u/s to check on the bean. Fingers crossed all is well in there.

We Saw the Heartbeat!!!!

We have one little bean in there measuring 6w5d with a heartbeat of 144 bpm. It was the most amazing thing I've ever seen. The RE said everything looks perfect. I am so incredibly relieved and grateful for this baby. We go back in 2 weeks for another scan. How did I get so lucky?

Week 7: Blueberry

My boobs are huge and sensitive...they get sore for a couple days and then I have a couple days where I don't feel a thing no matter how hard I poke. I've been going to bed at 7pm most nights and still dragging myself out of bed in the morning and I've been super thirsty...I have to have a bottle of water with me at all times. A little nauseous here and there, but mostly been annoyed by smells like cigarettes, fried food, and perfume. I'm happy with each last symptom and hope they continue. I feel lucky to have made it to 7 weeks.

7 week ultrasound tomorrow

I'm incredibly nervous. What will we see? I just don't know how I'm going to process it if we don't see anything or if we get some type of limbo result...like a slow heartbeat or a baby that is smaller than it should be. I will be so grateful if we just see a happy little heartbeat flickering away...just like all those normal couples that just get KU by surprise and don't have a care in the world walking into their first u/s. I wish I could be that happy, excited girl. Instead, I'm a ball of nerves, terrified of starting over at square one.

I just want this baby so bad. Please, please be there tomorrow, little one.

U/S is at 4:30pm EST. I'll update tomorrow evening.

Week 6: Sweetpea

I've been trying to keep the worries at bay by testing every other day like a crazy person. I don't even want to think how much money I've spent on HPTs...plus, what do they really tell me at this point?? They can't tell me if my betas are dropping or not...that pink line is maxed out. I've been feeling nauseous the past few days, though, but I don't think I'll feel ok until I actually barf. I know I shouldn't be wishing away good health, but I'm a little nuts right now.

A week from today is the u/s. How will I ever get through this week with my sanity intact.